Sometimes, powerful experiences are only really processed
after the fact. Our performance in the
Bachfest Leipzig was one of those.
A reporter for the Ottawa Citizen called our journey here to
Leipzig to perform in this festival “a pilgrimage”, and that’s really what it
was. As our conductor put it to us mere
hours before the performance, there’s nothing bigger, for this kind of music. Being here and performing in this festival is
it. I think we all felt that in our own
way, and each had our own way of processing it and preparing for it.
For me, I had to spend the entire day alone, centering and
grounding myself. I could not let emotion
or excitement or fear get in the way of singing absolutely perfectly. I took the time to prepare by walking around
Leipzig in the morning for a bit, not venturing very far from the Thomaskirche
and always making my way back to it to “check in” and sit in the space for a
little while before moving on again. I
also went to visit the Nikolaikirche again, one of the other churches where
Bach was responsible for the music.
There was someone rehearsing the organ when I went in there and they
were quite good, so I sat for a little while in the space and imagined what it
might have been like for Bach to play the organ long ago.
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| Inside detail of Nikolaikirche |
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| Nikolaikirche |
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I wanted to leave some flowers on his grave, but I couldn’t
really find anything appropriate in any of the stores. I eventually made my way into a park and saw
patches of tiny wild daisies, so I decided to pick some and tie them together
with grass, making my own tiny little bouquet to bring back. I sat a little while longer in the
space. It was a meditative kind of
morning. After this final visit I felt
grounded and focused enough. I went back
to my hotel room and sat with my music for a while, going over parts here and
there, immersing myself in the beautiful music we were about to perform and
repeating certain details over and over and over again... imprinting the
perfect phrasing in my kinesthetic memory so that in performance, it would come
out without thinking.
Our final dress rehearsal, this time with the Leipziger
Barock-Consort was two hours long and ended an
hour before the performance itself. We
went over every detail; emotions and stress was high, and our conductor may
have channelled Bach a little bit in her final talk to us. I think we got the message though.
I felt centered and calm and ready for it.
It was exciting to climb the spiral staircase up to the
choir dressing room and get ready up there.
You could feel the energy in the room, and I especially loved it when
the choir, from all corners of the room and in various states of dress or
undress, spontaneously started singing one of our pieces, just for the fun of
it. I love these people.
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The experience of actually singing there defies words. Processing up the church was a beautifully
solemn moment. The whole church full of at
least 1000 people stood in silence as we slowly walked in two lines up to our
place at the front, right in front of Bach’s grave.
As soon as we assembled to sing the first chant, my heart
started beating so fast. I was ready,
though, and erased all thoughts from my head, locked my eyes on our conductor,
and away we went.
There were so many incredible moments. So much joy, poetry, text, perfection, and
complete oneness with the music. There
was no space in my head for any other thoughts.
So many moments of oneness with my soprano section, so many delicate
interplays with other sections... at the end of the Bach piece, for a very
brief moment, I felt his presence there, just listening. When we sang the chorale with the entire
church full of voices, there were brief seconds I allowed myself to be lost in
that wash of sound and feel what it must have been like back then. But all these moments where I let myself feel
anything other than the music were so brief, and that is why it is taking a
long time to process the experience.
When you’re so focused on something like that, when every fibre of your
being and every muscle in your body is focused on precisely executing something
of that importance and skill and requires the full attention of your entire
spirit, you can’t really feel all the emotions until after you’re done.
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| Our listing in the Bachfest booklet (18.00 h) |
Our conductor has done an excellent job of describing more
of the performance, much better than I have.
I invite you all to check out our choir’s blog page and read her
thoughts here: Ottawa Bach Choir blog
Also, you can read an objective review of our concert and
tour by following this link to the Ottawa Citizen’s article about us: Ottawa's Bach pilgrims perform to highest standards
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When we came outside, a large part of the audience was
waiting there and they all started clapping for us. This was quite a surprise and we didn’t quite
know how to react! It felt a little bit
like being a rockstar. It was so lovely
to be so appreciated and validated for performing this kind of music... you
just don’t get quite this same kind of reception over in North America.
We got all kinds of
lovely compliments too – a native German speaker who was sitting at the very
back of the church told us that he could hear every single word of our
diction. Someone else commented that
they were very surprised that we came out of the church speaking English, as
our pronunciation of it while singing was so excellent. Someone else who saw our concert admired how
our vowel sounds matched so perfectly.
It is exciting to know that all of the things we worked on to the point
of exhaustion actually came across and moved people.
And of course, no life-changing choir performance is
complete without a rowdy after party, where we celebrated the way only choral
singers can. Musicians immerse
themselves in ALL the pleasures in life, not just music, and that includes good
food and drink...
We took over the hotel lobby of the Leipzig Marriot Hotel,
as there was no space for us in the actual restaurant (or any other restaurant
in Leipzig for that matter), pushing together couches and coffee tables until
we’d assembled seating space for the twenty or so of us. Celebrating after a performance is important
for helping to process all the emotions and remind each other of the special
moments, and we stayed there eating and drinking well into the night. A Dutch group that was also in the lobby came
over to find out who we were, and after learning we were a choral group that
had just performed at the Thomaskirche in the Bachfest, they requested we sing
something. Not missing a moment, our
conductor chose one of the difficult fugue passages from the Bach piece we had
just done and off we went, singing entirely from memory. It is always a thrill to sing in bars or
other places like that on the fly. A
round of applause from all parts of the hotel lobby followed suite, and of
course we continued on with more, singing two more pieces, this time some quick
moving spirituals, always a hit over here.
I feel honoured to be a part of this choir and to work with
such incredible musicians.
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